Toni Powell | Webinar and Gratitude | GREAT OPPORTUNITY

gratitude-changes-everything

Good morning,

Yes there is still some of it left as I sit here now with the chance to write – quickly at that though (I am meant to be doing tax stuff … eeek!).

Last night I tuned in to a free webinar that was put on by a lady named Toni Powell. She has had quite a life full of adventures and business and family, and her time now is spent helping people to find happiness and changing their lives for better. 

“Toni is dangerous. If you want your life to stay as it is, stop reading now.

Give her an inch and she’ll take you a mile out of your comfort zone. Being a risk-taker herself, she dances on cliff edges and skips along roads less travelled. 

But go there with her and she’ll help you find life in hidden parts of yourself. She sees possibility where others don’t see it. 

When she speaks you soon realise her optimism and passion wells up from a deeply held belief that life is good – a veritable trove of treasures. She is always on the lookout for simple, fun ways to help people find treasures they thought were lost. Dangerous? Yes. Good for you? Definitely.”            Mark Nebauer ( friend for 40 years)

 

The webinar itself was quite good – funny and insightful and enjoyable – leaving me wanting more…of which I can have, and so can you! She is just now making her course The Great Full Life Class available online, and at a reduced price for early birds (which is only available for another 36ish hours). It is a six week course – but is available for up to six months to complete in your own time (VERY attractive for me!).

I’m not selling anything and this is here ONLY because I found her talk great and her words rang true with me. So thought that anyone who might be looking for this sort of online course to take a gander over there.

This is where you can find her – Toni Powell

This is a 9ish minute TEDxNoosa video of a talk of hers – The Power of Words  | Please, please, please take some time today to watch this – it is so beautiful and raw and real!

This is where you will find information about the online class – The Great Full Life Online Class

This is where you can get the early bird special – Early Bird Deal

 

Ok Tax Fairy wings back on.

Wishing you all a fabulous day!!
x Anni x

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Dishes and Adult Rewards

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Good morning!

And it is a good one. It’s been a while since I have felt ‘good’ upon rising – but I do today | I feel a stirring in my belly to ‘get things done’ (and this might be helped along the way with an early morning drop off of a much needed hand sander by my bro-in-law | old telephone table overhaul HERE I COME)!

It’s a funny thing for me to think about being an ‘adult’. As an 18 year old (many a year ago now), I distinctly remember my father casually handing me a beer | as he would a mate | and then the shock I felt. He looked at me expectantly, 

| do you not want a beer? |

I did, certainly I did. But what was so weird for me was how I felt. My father realised after a short moment that I was a bit uncomfortable with the situation, as though he picked up on my feeling of being ‘naughty’ for drinking, and he said “You’re an adult now Anni, you can have a beer if you want to”. Simple as that. For him, I was now officially an adult.

| Overnight I went from being a child to an adult.
And as far as I was concerned, that was WEIRD |

That moment has popped in to my head multiple times over the last 13 years, as I’ve had ‘adult’ moments – I still feel like I’m not really an adult, as though I’m pretending. And I have to say, it is not those usual adult tasks and activities | marriage (although that is debatable), children, name changes, buying a house, going on your own family holiday | that has really made me feel like an adult.

No, it has been quiet adult moments within myself, when I have made, what to me are, adult choices. 

Something even as simple as doing the dishes…

I know, unusual activity to draw a sense of age / wisdom / adulthood from? Bear with me.

As a younger person I H.A.T.E.D doing the dishes…and right up until after purchasing my own unit and living by myself…I would often go for days at a time working through the entire kitchen, until I had literally used ALL possible containers without washing any. The resulting brothel of dirty | and oft smelly | containers and plates and mess to clean up was enough to send me running to a friend’s house for breakfast…lunch…and dinner. 

And then I met my man. Who, when allowed to be, was JUST AS BAD, if not WORSE.

| Something had to change |

And so, slowly, ever so slowly, I changed…and grew….and turned in to an adult | by CHOOSING to do the dishes | even when I really didn’t want to.

Now, please don’t get me wrong, I still don’t LIKE doing them, but I know that they are just something that has to be done. And that, I suppose, has been part of my adult moments for me 

| doing what just needs to be done |

What I didn’t count on though, was the peace and tranquility I get when I see the kitchen free of mess and clutter and dirty dishes = the rewards of those adult choices.

I had an adult reward moment this morning as I walked in to my kitchen – peace and tranquility to start the day! 

Enjoy your day!
With love,
x Anni x

 

 Ssshhhh, they still scare me sometimes…

 

A bad week…then Tennant Creek

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So despite my ‘magic drugs’ I’ve still been struggling.

I had a terrible week around 2 weeks ago – lots of going to bed late, lots of getting up late, lots of procrastination, and lots of not many good choices being made,

“lots of lying on my back at the bottom of a pit,
kicking my legs in the air.”

At the time I had lots of guilt and anger mingled in with dissapointment with myself and a good dose of self loathing.

Why can I not be strong enough to be the woman I know I can be?
Why do I continue to make choices that see me ‘standing beside the REAL me’ – the woman I WANT to be?
Why do I come back to this place when I know both how NOT to get here and HOW to GET OUT of here?

Well, for me, I think I was relying too heavily on the false sense of security that my happy pills would be my ‘quick fix’ and that I wouldn’t need to ‘work’. But I do. I have to work – HARD. I need to consciously make the right choices for how I want to live my life, FORCE myself sometimes to DO the things that I WANT but am not automatically doing. That AUTOMATIC comes after the work of practice and maintenance to create the RIGHT HABITS that then become automatic. 

So, a bad week it was | yes | but, it’s done now, and gone, and no one is hurt out of it, nothing has been permanently damaged, nothing has happened that cannot be turned around – including my attitude and feelings about myself as a person and mother. 

Tennant Creek

Following my bad week, I took a road trip down the middle of the Territory to the town of Tennant Creek to visit my beautiful sister Hannah who has recently made the move to the land of red dirt and magnificent clear clean starry nights. Hannah has followed her heart, that takes the shape of her lovely man | and I applaude their love and her courage at making quite a big move, and not only to just move, but to embrace the life, her new home and the people who are now regularly in her life. 

I love hearing and watching her talk animatedly about the wonderful characters who she has met and now shares an experience with – that she finds joy in the quirks of people, that she so enjoys and soaks up their stories and adventures and then embraces their sharing. 

I love this wonderful, eccentric, passionate, raw, strong, exquisit woman I am lucky enough to call one of my sisters – and how unbelievably blessed can one be to have not 1 but 3 of these magical creatures in my life!!

I will leave this here for now, but I will expand on my Tennant Creek adventure in my next post.

 

For now however, I hope you have all had a lovely last couple of weeks | and if you haven’t I hope you have gained some new knowledge about yourself, your heart, your mind or even just to marvel at your ability to come through tough times. 

I have so much love for you all.

x Anni x

Touching base | Not just saying ‘I’ve been busy’

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Ok, so I’ve not dropped off the face…I’m still here, plugging away.

It’s been a busy bit of time, my sister’s 30th birthday, family in town, life in general. It’s a funny sort of thing to say, “Oh I’ve been so very very busy” as that line for me is a real ‘go to’ for when people ask what I’ve been up to, almost a ‘please don’t ask me to explain, as my head might pop with the effort to extract the information’. 

But it wouldn’t pop, and it might in fact be good for me every now and then to ACTUALLY say what it is that has been happening | making me stop, and reflect and share | instead of making it all seem so much more than it all has been. 

Being mindful and in the moment. Forcing the thoughts of a million ‘things to do’ aside and actually FOCUS on the person I am talking with and what they have asked me. 

Something I’m pondering this thought this morning as I sit here, ready to share.

My week since I last shared has been pretty full | of love and good times with family and friends. 

Hubby, the ‘Dragons’ and I joined some of our closest friends for a camping trip last weekend | days of sun and sand and evenings of drinks and laughs, it was a really good ‘unplug’ from the every day / night and so good for the soul to be around nature. I do so love the recharge that I get from being in the ‘bush’ / outback, or near the waves of the sea with sand between my toes.

So so so good for the mind and spirit.

Following our time away Hubby had a week off from his long hours and hard work and we mostly pottered around home here, spending time together and getting some things done that required both of us. The boys adored having him home, and I luckily had a couple of delicious sleep in mornings, being spared the ‘morning show’ (out of bed, breakfast, getting dressed ‘experience’ with the boys). 

We also spent some of the week preparing for my next-in-line sister’s 30th birthday, which we held at our house here on Saturday. Not a huge amount of prep required as it was a lovely simple party with hung fairy lights and paper lanterns, blankets and cushions on the grass with pallet ‘tables’, punch drunk out of recycled food jars. Very ‘market’ feel and so easy to set up and pack down too.
It was a really lovely night with good friends and family marking her 30th year with love and laughs. I do love a well organised get together.

And now? 

Some ‘down’ time, focusing on some usual life chores and activities and casting my mind to continuing my journey to finding me – whilst being thankful and grateful every day in this blessed, love filled life I call my own. 

I hope you have all had a lovely week also.

Much love

x Anni x

 

Heels on my day off

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Not too long ago I worked in a corporate office, surrounded by corporate people, busy working corporate jobs…wearing very corporate clothes.

I LOVED wearing corporate clothes! I loved finding an outfit that made me feel powerful and strong. ‘Power Dressing’ I believe it is called. I loved shopping for the perfect items to help build my corporate wardrobe, and | most of the time | the most important part of that wardrobe… the heels!

Oh the heels! I had so many shoes, of all different heights, and colours, and I ADORED wearing them. 

Since becoming a mummy I no longer wear corporate gear, and over the last 3 years the ‘corporate’ items have slowly disappeared from my wardrobe. 

Please don’t get me wrong, one can still ‘power dress’ with an ‘every day’ wardrobe,

 it all comes down to how you feel when you’re dressing and what you ‘see’ when you look in the mirror 

For me, part of it still comes down to my heels. I still have so very many of them, love them, sometimes put them on and walk around the house for a little while, feeling strong, liking the way they make my calves look {lol}, just loving them. 

 

Well…. yesterday I had a day off. Off from the kidlets | looked after by my darling sister | to get some things done, appointments etc. 

And I wore heels! It felt amazing, I felt sexy and attractive, and a bit like my ‘old self’ where I was a bit more aware of ‘me’ – but different, somehow better, because above those heels was a woman with so much more life and experience and wisdom than the last time they had been below her.

In my ‘old life’ I would have laughed at wearing heels on my ‘day off’, for as much as I loved my heels, I was more than happy to slip them off at the end of day in favour of either bare feet or thongs.

But this is my new life, my REAL life and I wear heels on my day off!! 

| If I want to |

heels

xx

Creative juices are flowing = Feeding the Space Just for Me

I hope this finds you all well, healthy and happy – and if not, that you’re working towards being so x

Time for me to share…

oH I’m so very excited! 

For $12 and a bit of brain space usage, I’ve now got art for the wall in my bedroom. 

Yesterday I mentioned that I was working with these gorgeous Op Shopped frames, and now I’ve given them new life and they are going to look ah-may-zing on my wall. 

Yay!

Ok here’s how I did it.

Started with my spunky frames

4 wooden frames purchased from op shop

Purchased for $4.00 each at Vinnies = baaar|gain!

Went for a walk around our block to find just the right leaves, this is what I came up with…

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Then this afternoon whilst the boys were sleeping, it all came together like this;

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My trusty little Pink Power glue gun

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Positioning of the leaves on a piece of water colour cartidge paper | why water colour? I absolutely ADORE the grain and texture that this type of water provides, and it was this ‘earthy’ grain that I KNEW would be a perfect and fitting background for these beautiful leaves.

IMG_2800Got that glue all up on those leaves | and | taa daa …

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All stuck down looking fabulous, now to put the frames all back together again, minus smudges and dust etc between the glass and the ‘art’… 

IMG_2805“Arrg! Where did YOU come from little piece of stick?
Thank you for waiting until I
had put the picture all together again!”

IMG_2807Completed product! 

This picture does no justice to the colours in the leaves | and that has NOTHING to do with the holder of the camera! I went with brown, green and red / pink shades in the leaves that I looked for, and I’m really pleased with the result. 

I’ll let you know what it looks like once its up on the wall.

Feeding of Spaces Just for Me | Categories : Creative Outlet & Recycling Mission = Fed and watered

Tell me what you think, have you done anything like this before? Where you happy with the result?

Love xx

| x |Thank you | x |

thanks

 

Good day all!

Firstly – Thank you THank you ThANk You!! The feedback and response to my making this ‘live’ | known | has been overwhelming and humbling. Its great to know that you have enjoyed it thus far | it spurs me on to continue | to keep sharing | to keep searching | to keep creating. 

Love it! SO thank you again xoxox

 

Now on to my creative ventures. So yesterday I took the little ones with me on a trip to try find the perfect material for a curtain I plan to make for our ensuite window. Well, the perfect material did not present itself | a few other bits and pieces caught my eye and enticed themselves in to my trolley | check out the one that made it in to my ‘dressing zone’ for me to check out each day.

So for now I have placed the curtain making on to a shelf in my creative brain | with ideas brewing around how to make it still work | watch out for this later.

 

For now however, I am focusing on these totally awesome frames that I found in my most recent Op Shop Fossick! (my excitement can be found HERE on my RRRR page). 

SO this is a sneak peek of what might | or might not | be happening…

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I’ll reveal all when it’s ready.

Hope you’ve all had a great day.

xox

Creative Adventure | Ensuite

So I’m off today with the boys to find some ‘perfect’ material for a curtain that I am making for our ensuite.

I went for a walk yesterday to find some of the bits and pieces that I would need, and found these…

Wooden Gum Tree sticks from the garden / bush

Aren’t they lovely? I think so.

They will be helping to do up this space

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A bit drab and a few colours that I need to work with

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I’ll show what I come up with later today.

Oh and I had to share these little beauties that I found in my bush fossic-ing adventure

Pandanus Nuts

Pandanus Nuts

I just love them.

Have found a great place for them too…will also share that later.

Off to find some material!

xx

Depression and the pressures of being a Mum | Luxury and Silver Linings

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So here’s something that I’m ready to share. I’ve been on anti-depressants for a handful of weeks now.

Whilst I didn’t really want to go on them (having been on them before and experienced some of the side effects) I had to acknowledge that life had ‘caught up to me’ and I was not coping too well.

As a young woman earlier in my life I would have laughed at myself if I said ‘Depression is a luxury’ (and please please please do not think that I glorify depression or trivialise it either, as I know FIRST hand how awful it can be and destructive to both one’s mind and their lives | relationships | work etc).

I shall explain… In previous years when I have experienced depression and anxiety,

I have had the ‘luxury’ to take time off work to lie in bed all day and feel terrible.
I have had the ‘luxury’ of going home to Mum and Dad at the drop of a hat to have some recovery time.
I have had the ‘luxury’ of being able to just ‘fall apart’.

Now however, as a Mummy, there is simply no space for such ‘luxuries’. I HAVE to seek help as soon as I feel my mind fighting AGAINST me. I HAVE to talk to my friends and family and TELL them what I’m feeling. I HAVE to get myself in to a good space again as soon as possible…for me |yes| but also for the little people who I brought in to this world and who rely on me. I NEED to LOOK AFTER ME – for them!

So yes, whilst Depression could be considered a ‘luxury’ to indulge in, I now find that the additional pressures and little ones who need me, FORCE me to get help and therefore not be down for as long as I have been in the past | I am forced to action for my mental health now | and I find that I am so very thankful and grateful for this.

My ‘silver lining’ in the haze of pressures and mental cloudiness.

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NOTE: By the way, the ‘crazy pills’ have worked really well, saved my sinking mind and probably my marriage too! I know they are not the quick fix as a permanent thing, but they have brought me to a level where I now feel able to cope with dealing with all the triggers that brought me to the need for them.

What do you think of the analysis I have made of this? Does this ring true for you too, or do you feel differently about this?

xx

Spaces Just for Me | and | New Pages

Photo credit - How the Hell Did I End Up Here - Do you see what I see? (click on photo to go to blog)

 

I have quite a few passions, some I share with the world at large, some with only the closest of friends and family and some only within the precious little spaces in my heart reserved just for me.

 

I recommend this | Spaces just for Me| it is something that every, and I mean EVERY person in this world should have, find, force (if necessary), nurture and maintain.

No matter where you go in life or what you do, whoever you meet or fall in love with | be that friendship or romantic | we ALL need to keep pieces of ourselves … to ourselves.

And I don’t mean in a ‘secretive’ affair type way…no…I would NEVER encourage THAT type of thing. I mean, bits that are just for your heart, that remind you of YOU, who you are, what makes you ‘tick’, what makes your mind hum with energy, what your heart dreams of, what is in the fabric of your make up that makes you strive for everything in your life.

 

This might mean the places you have always wished to travel, or a tattoo you have always wished for, or a career path you have always wanted to pursue…tuck them away in your Spaces Just for Me place | for now | if you are unable to do this straight away. Sometimes those places to travel, tattoos, career aspirations change or disappear as life | and you | changes and moulds you in to the person you are / become. But this should only be something that you are OK with in your Spaces Just for Me place, otherwise you will still hear the song from you heart! Listen to this. Don’t squash it, don’t destroy it with ‘real world’ negativity.

What is the ‘real world’?

IT IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT!!!

Therefore create your Spaces Just for Me Space | if you don’t already have one | and feed it, take from it and give to it as you grow and mature and evolve. This will all be steps closer to being truly HONEST with YOU!!

 

THIS is all stuff I have been thinking about, stewing around in my head for years, weeks, days, minutes of my time. So I’m DOING this and ACTING on some things, dusting the shelves of my Space Just for Me and clearing away the things I’m ok to no longer pursue. But ultimately I am beginning to listen to my heart again | looking for “Me” again (without trying to sound like a line out of a Train song) | being true to me again.

Yes, this is for ME, but it is also for my family and friends. If I’m not honest with myself, how can i really be the best example, role model, friend and family member to my children, husband, friends and family?

If I am the BEST VERSION of myself for me, then it stands to reason that I will be able to be the BEST VERSION I can be as a mother, wife, friend, family member.

 

Sooooooo as part of this process I am opening up a couple more pages that will show some of my passions | those that I share AND that those that help to feed the pulse in my Spaces Just for Me.

REDUCE | REUSE | REPURPOSE | RECYCLE  –  This will be a space in which I will talk about my passion about reducing, reusing, repurposing and recycling…everything!

MY JOURNEY TO ME  –  This will be a space where I will share | some of | the adventures along the path to finding the heart of me.

 

So for now, I’m off. But I leave this with a sense of peace for having shared | a bit | of me

🙂